list of happy things : 🌱 the sun is rising every morning 🌱 lovely music to listen everyday 🌱 comfy clothes, eating alone in a calm place, took a appointment to the doc and it went well! 🌱 bought myself an edgyyy blanket cover (it's red and black) 🌱 efficacity 🌱 when cancelling plans doesn't bother 🌱 understanding structures and law 🌱 using the world : disclaimer instead of trigger warning when it's about responsabilities and not harm sensitivity (learn the difference!) 🌱 waking up with plans, concretising them 🌱 taking a little nap 🌱 social interactions that flow 🌱 the impression of being busy and knowing where you go 🌱 being able to move fast with a scooter when weather is good ! 🌱 flea market season 🌱 taking time to heal, being lucky to not having much to do
things I love : 🌀 waking up at 6:06 by a windstorm 🍎 my internet friends ❤️‍🩹 people who let me be distant and still love me 🪀 feeling free ! 📝 writing in a sunny corner + metallic trinkets ! 🐼 panda plushie (pandas are so silly and useless) 🎶 listening at music my online friends sent me 🥪 croc opac 🌱 taking some time to plant seeds and repotting mom's plants 🐻 thinking about my childhood (Monster & cie, plushies 🚲 seeing two guys on a bicycle, smiling, the weather is great 🎈 feeling free and going anywhere you want, leaving the crowd and just wander around 🧱 preparing my suitcase to travel + lists 🧊 drinking water 🍓 Anna Tsuchiya concert, strawberry glasses, Nana's community 🪻 being adult enough to offer tea and perfume 🐈‍⬛little cat trinkets and little turtles trinkets 📚 reading ALNSTG comics and actually feel things
things I found : 🌷 gifts for my friends 🎶 a very cool bag (very used and grey and cracked) 🐁 grey fluffy whool to make a rat lol. 📝 an empty class with nice teacher and a friend : courbes d'isoprix theorie et exercices + courbes des demandes + courbes ascendantes et descendantes 🌱 acknowledging and accepting that you can be upset and borderline because lack of sleep and feeling overwhelmed. Say sorry sincerely and get up again 🚪inaugurating door spots ✍️ writing spots 🧱 free walls and no cameras 🐁 a girl just sitting alone 🌸 a new family : friends in a restaurant, sharing a meal ✏️ a space to draw online 🪀 OC and sharing OC !!!!!!! Drawing them, yapping about them with someone
things I offered : 💀 my vulnerability 🪻 letters 🐛 presents I delicately selected and bought 🧦 new socks because I noticed my friend has seriously damaged socks 🎈 my support at an artist market 🎁 presents for myself ✉️ messages ; asking news 📚 book ! (Twelve) 🦴 chocolate I got and a bot someone offered me oops 📜 parchemin dans pot lol, letters to the wild ✏️ arts in the street 🍅 pochitomate 🍯 must offer honey to friends who needs it ! 🐢 trinkets my friend collects 🍣 food for family 🪻 lily of the valley that are growing in my garden 🚒 projects to friends 🍙 made meat balls lol 🎁 offering myself the opportunity to go to Dokomi
not happy things + solutions

 solutions : 1) won't be angry for missing a transport, being patient, using the waiting time to meditate 2) checking pogoda/meteo/weather anticipations 3) try to comfort people, then speak your mind 4) asking too much can bother people so find solution yourself and right measures, it's valid to ask to know tho, but sometimes answers will come to yourself (no immediately) 5) taking the time to explain, breathe and say the thing ; if you don't have an answer : say that you don't know yet 6) everyday I am changing ! there are ups and down 7) You don't need other's validation to keep going on, to improve and to exist 8) take time to speak up, slowly, reflect before answering. Chose the right words, chose the intonation 9) being aware of your condition, resting well and projecting yourself in doable plans 10) you are enough ! you are human, full of potentials. Think about what you've done, what you shared, what you will get in the future. You are a source of growing hope 🌱 11) 16) arriving earlier and isolating a bit, writing about the subject I need to masterize. Letting yourself be guided by the flow of the class' energy
1) that bus who is late and is making late everyone, 2) cold hands waiting outside. 3) being affected with people when you are in a comfort zone (might bring intellectual perspectives) 4) being rejected because you are asking questions or do not share the same point of view 5) missing the rythm, being anxious 6) feeling that I am not improving 7) feeling attacked by the non-attention of people 8) struggling to explain (🌱 solution : speak slowly, chose your words) 9) having blank mind, being slow (I am slow ?) 10) feeling not being enough 11) being humiliated 12) not having time to prove yourself and to other your value 13) I will keep hurting other people who love me because i am nonchalent, indifferent, because I am tired I feel used by other people for their own benefit and profit Once they said "I am scared you feel stuck" well, you did everything to make me feel stuck and it feels bad now I don't feel love for people who love me but aversion 14) overdosing food, abusing food and hurting my body 15) i really fucking hate authoritarian old men i hope they stay away from me 16) being stressed before class